Feel like cheating

And eat some nice food.. And so I had a small bowl of lotus root soup with some pork just before 8pm just now.. I’ve had such a busy day at work u know … >_<

Work today had been hectic – haven felt hectic for a while already. The amount of forms that came in today was ATROCIOUS. And the amount of forms incorrectly filled was also … Sigh. And the best part is, some lawyer decided to send in a search request at 550pm.

What the TOOT right?

Hubby happened to be working late today, so he couldn't buy dinner. I gotta take train to bishan, get dinner there and then take the feeder bus back. If I leave on time, I can reach home by 715pm.

And the lawyer decided to send the email so tooting late. Actually, this particular lawyer always sends requests at this time. Sigh.

I know, I know *flails arms helplessly* this is work and shit happens. That lawyer isn't at fault and it's just bad timing.

Just let me rant k.

So I left office at 625pm, rushed back home n managed to reach home slightly after 730pm. There and then, I wished (again) that I worked near home.

It takes me 1 hour 15 minutes to travel to and from work. It's a stupendous waste of time!!! 😦 if I work at that commercial area next to my place, I would be home in 5 min!

This is life. My life. A life of a working married mum of 2 kids.

I really hope things will get easier soon.. Where I can go gym before n after work.. Where I can work late and not feel so damn pressurized about buying dinner back. Seriously, random incidents like this, even though it's just occasional, can drive me nuts!

Can I have a job that can let me off at 6pm sharp, every single day?


When I was pregnant…

I just wanted a post that has pics when I was pregnant, just so that I will remember how un-pretty I was. Never will this happen again!!

This was when I was in my second trimester. Was still serving as a vocalist in church. And I already looked super bloated and puffed up :S

Still in second trimester – in Hong Kong. I agree that second trimester is the best of all trimesters. The load wasnt that bad yet, and the nauseous first trimester was mostly over. Well nausea stayed with me thru out from start to end, just that it was milder during second trimester. 😑

This took place at my home, when my life group celebrated birthday for me and CS.

Birthday celebration with my family. Look at that arm!

KTV with hubby. I believe I was in last trimester Liao. Cos that night there was a major road block for a stupid run and I stood so long outside Cineleisure waiting for hubby to pick me up. That wait nearly broke my back!

Confirm last trimester. One of my last duties as vocalist. Hmm I wonder when I will be back in church?

Last one taken during Christmas celebration with life group. I was huge already. After that I didn’t bother taking any more pics of myself cos I will delete them away after looking at it haha.

The experience of pregnancy is overall a horrid memory for me. A bad 10 months. I told many friends, I wasn’t myself at all and i am quite sure my colleagues can attest to that. I was cranky, paranoid, short tempered, demanding! So thankful that they could tahan me.

But I must say, pregnancy is different for everyone! Many ladies love to be pregnant. They say they have lots of energy, they got no nausea, they can go shopping without getting backache. WTF – sorry I cannot understand it lor haha. Not for me!

And moving forward, I want to be TRANSFORMED. To the me 10 years ago! I am determined to lose the 10 kg!

Here’s a pic of me now.

Not a good pic cos my dress hides everything. Zzz. Anyway my point is, I wanna be slimmer! Skinnier! Smaller! More bony! Less fleshy! Actually after a month of gym, I haven seen much results yet. I shall persevere. Extend to 40min per workout and I should see some results soon πŸ™‚ and what’s my motivation?


Wear that gorgeous dress and look as pretty as her :))

Miss Misfit

Have you ever woken up in the morning feeling like your body doesn’t belong to you, and you end up wearing clothes that don’t fit your branded bag, and to top it off, because it’s raining, you slip on a pair of flip-flops so it’s easier to walk, you look like a clown before you step out of the door, and despite knowing you look like a clown, you feel too crappy to change out of it.

And so I reached office looking like an absolute misfit. While other OLs (Office Ladies) look spanking delicious with their Chanels and killer red heels.

And the crazy thoughts start pouring in.

“I don’t have enough nice clothes”

“I don’t have enough bags to fit my clothes”

“I need some waterproof + CHIO boots for rainy weather” (if there’s ever such shoes..)

And as if my mood isn’t bad enough, i started surfing Google images for nice bags..


I don’t mind this Chanel. Pack that face in too.


Or this Loewe Amazing Amazona.

I’ve always made fun of people (quietly in my mind) who don’t wear nice clothes to match their loud brandedΒ bags. Good God, now I am one of them 😦

And because of my misfit in everything this morning, I made a silly mistake at work. and now i am feeling worse. ARGH. I HATE MAKING MISTAKES.

Sigh. Misfit at work too. That – will be another lengthy rant maybe later today..